Okay... so before I start, I wanted you all to know that I don't know everything. I don't have it all together. I don't have everything figured out. Let's face it... none of us do. And if you do, congratulations! :) I would like to meet you and ask you a few questions! :) Cause i sure do not have everything figured out.
What I do know, is that God loves me. God is persuing me:) GOD KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR ME! :)
He loves us all. Not as a group, not as a church, but as INDIVIDUALS! I know that no matter what I'm going through... God is always there. :) He's helping me everystep of the way:)
I also know that he has a plan and a calling for my life:) I just need to listen. He has a plan for each and every one of us:) He knows everything about us. He loves us. He loves you. He loves you more than you can possibly imagine.
That is all.
Thank you:)
""It's hard to stay mad, when there's so much beauty in the world. Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once, and it's too much, my heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst... And then I remember to relax, and stop trying to hold on to it, and then it flows through me like rain and I can't feel anything... but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life." -American Beauty
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
ohhhhhh I'm on a roll
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Ohhhhhh im on a roll :P
by Kayla Orr on Sunday, June 20, 2010 at 10:47pm
Life is a challenge. It really is. We all have our ups and downs. The times when we're so over-joyed we can't even begin to fathem the idea of something bad happening. Then we have those times when we're so hurt and distraught that we can't even imagine how things are going to get better. I've had times in my life when I just want to stop... we all have. Life sucks... lets face it. Life wasn't meant to be care-free. We all are going to have struggles. Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. We cannot grow stronger if we're never challenged. There are two types of people in the world; those who get back up and dust themselves off, and those who simply stop.
Life sucks. Thats it. Life is always going to be a constant struggle and people are going to just have to accept that. We, as people, think "oh if I can just achieve that, I'll be happy", but in thinking this way, we are never TRUELY happy. Even if we just so happen to achieve everything, its never going to be enough. We are always going to want more and we remain unhappy in our relentless persuit of success and achievment.
All I can say, is life sucks. You're always going to have struggles, you're always going to have hard times. The thing is... you can choose to be someone who continues living, fights through all the bad times, holds onto their faith, and enjoys the good times.... or you can be the person who stops.
Ohhhhhh im on a roll :P
by Kayla Orr on Sunday, June 20, 2010 at 10:47pm
Life is a challenge. It really is. We all have our ups and downs. The times when we're so over-joyed we can't even begin to fathem the idea of something bad happening. Then we have those times when we're so hurt and distraught that we can't even imagine how things are going to get better. I've had times in my life when I just want to stop... we all have. Life sucks... lets face it. Life wasn't meant to be care-free. We all are going to have struggles. Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. We cannot grow stronger if we're never challenged. There are two types of people in the world; those who get back up and dust themselves off, and those who simply stop.
Life sucks. Thats it. Life is always going to be a constant struggle and people are going to just have to accept that. We, as people, think "oh if I can just achieve that, I'll be happy", but in thinking this way, we are never TRUELY happy. Even if we just so happen to achieve everything, its never going to be enough. We are always going to want more and we remain unhappy in our relentless persuit of success and achievment.
All I can say, is life sucks. You're always going to have struggles, you're always going to have hard times. The thing is... you can choose to be someone who continues living, fights through all the bad times, holds onto their faith, and enjoys the good times.... or you can be the person who stops.
I'm the next Edgar Allan Poe...
Shall we emerge from the light and cast away the shadows of death that dance with joy all around us
We simply huddle in our misery and drown in our tears.
We have no hope nor do we try to excel. We simply envy those who have captured hope and hold it in the palm of their hand.
Discouraged by our enemies and abandoned by the desires from which we grew up.
Never dreaming to submerge from the glow of hope . We grow invisible into the shadows of the cold lifeless allyways.
our voices never to be heard again. There is nothing left of us and who we were or who we were meant to be,
and the beating sounds fade into hallow blows as our hearts harden and crumble to a cold gray dust.
If only we held onto hope.
We simply huddle in our misery and drown in our tears.
We have no hope nor do we try to excel. We simply envy those who have captured hope and hold it in the palm of their hand.
Discouraged by our enemies and abandoned by the desires from which we grew up.
Never dreaming to submerge from the glow of hope . We grow invisible into the shadows of the cold lifeless allyways.
our voices never to be heard again. There is nothing left of us and who we were or who we were meant to be,
and the beating sounds fade into hallow blows as our hearts harden and crumble to a cold gray dust.
If only we held onto hope.
ohhhhhhh and i get angry
Today my mom went to clean an elderly woman's home. She was soooooooo kind and her and I sat for awhile and talked about how this nation is becoming more and more corrupt and how we desperately need God (cause old people like to talk about that kinda stuff). It was nice to talk with her and hear her opinions and views on how life is and how life should be. I could tell that she was so disgusted and upset about how this nation that was built "UNDER GOD" is turning out. Its terribly sad that our nation is so corrupt. Talking with her made me realize that people change. As much as we don't want them to, they always do and many times its for the worse. A person becomes addicted to drugs or alcohol...CHANGE! A person who was once so innocent starts dabbling in sexual immortality... CHANGE! And it seems like people are always changing for the worse and in doing so, they're heading in the wrong direction. We can try to stop people from changing for the worse, but many times they aren't going to listen. So what?!?!... we give up, let those people we care so much about destroy their lives? We can't just do that. We can't just sit back and allow those people to head straight on the path of self annihilation. If we love these people SO much, we do we simply give up on them? Why aren't we chasing them, perusing them, praying for them, talking with them, showing them that there is hope in something other than all these corrupt things they are partaking in. We talk amongst our friends and think to ourselves about how much they are changing, but why aren't we DOING anything? We aren't confronting them. Maybe thats why this nation is so corrupt. Maybe thats why statistics say that 19.1 million Americans ages 12 years and older were current users of illicit drugs in the year 2004. (the statistics are drastically increasing). This means that they used an illicit drug at least once within 30 days of being interviewed. Maybe this is why only 63% of teens showed abstinence in the year 2003, the percentage decreased nearly 30% by the year 2007. Maybe if these people's friends actually spoke up, we wouldn't have this problem...
And if feels like I'm screaming to the top of my lungs and no one is listening.
I was thinking and it is utterly amazing what God does for us. I am so unworthy, so sinful, so rebellious against him, yet he still wants me. He is still perusing me. He still shelters me after all I've done. After all the times I've used him, ignored him, cursed his name, he's still there with open arms waiting for me to come back to him. He loves me regardless of everything I've done. He's done so much for me and for what? So I can go off, living as though he's not there. We all want that "perfect relationship", whether its with a parent, lover, friend, etc., but we don't realize that we already have that. We already have someone that loves us more than we could possibly fathom. So why do we ignore that? Why do we simply push that aside in return for Earthly relationships and Earthly love that aren't nearly as great as what God has for us. We fill our lives with Earthly things that will never fully satisfy us, but why? I can't imagine why we ignore that.
We have the perfect relationships right at the tip of our fingers, but we don't reach out and grab it. Because? because we're too lazy? Too scared? Too worried we're doing something wrong? We don't want to change? Endless love isn't worth that little bit of effort?!?! We don't read the Bible because we're scared? We think its a bunch of "Rules and Regulations"? NO! Its not, its the biggest love book in this world. Its not a bunch of "thou shalt not do this" and "thou shalt always do that". No, its filled with "I love you", "I'm perusing you", "you mean everything to me." YOU, individually, mean everything to me. He knows each and every one of us better than we know ourselves and he loves us... for US! He loves us constantly, CONSTANTLY. No matter what we've done in the past or what we're doing now... and when you realize that, you can't contain it.
So I'm sure you're thinking "Wellllll Kayla, you just have more faith than me!"
WELLLLL PERSON... all you need is faith the size of a mustard seed. (:
Hello People of the world! I'm on a mission to change your life
1.) Kayla, how are you always so happy?
2.) Youre the biggest optimist I know. how do you do it?
3.) How can you always keep a smile on your face?
4.) how are you so satisfied with yourself and your life.
I get asked these questions all the time and honestly the answer is how could i NOT be happy.
1.) I'm happy because I have no reason to be unhappy. I have so much and God has provided me with so much. So really.... I have no reason to be anything but happy.
2.) I'm not always optimistic. Actually I'm more of a realist but when something bad happens I choose not to be negative. I dont choose to wallow in my own sadness. I dont choose to pity myself. I get back up, dust myself off, and fix the problem.
...we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit which has been given to us. (Romans 5:3-5)
3.) I always smile... even when i dont feel like it. I do this because you never know who needs a smile(:
4.) I'm satisfied with myself because i know who i am and who God mafe me to be. I dont have to "search" for myself. I dont have to go from trend to trend trying to be and look like everyone else. I'm satisfied with who I am because God doesnt make mistakes.
and yesss... I have to remind myself that everyday.
soooo in conclusion... I'm hoping that this little note some how... some way changed your aspect on life and even hopefully made you a happier person (:
You never know who needs to hear something like this(:
so:
when youre happy express it. (I'm not saying never cry... sometimes you need a good cry)
always keep a smile on your face
know that God doesnt make mistakes and you.are.beautiful.
Dont try to be like anyone else...
because I....and a lot of other people... and God... love YOU. (:
Friday, September 24, 2010
I GOTS A PUPPY!!! (:
Once again... this is kinda late:P I got him in April (:His name is Bowser... like off of Mario and he completely makes my life a lot better(:
He def. brings laughter to my household(:
For example....
this image:P
North Cackalakee (:
So its a little late.... actually a LOT late, but I went to North Carolina like in April I think....
Any whooooo
it was amazing(: even though there was no cell phone reception and the closet bathroom was 2.5 miles away....
We camped out in a tent, ate smores (:, and sang around the camp fire(: It was a wonderful experience(:
Especially Rainbow Falls. (: It was about a 10 mile hike (up a mountain), but it was TOTALLY worth it (:
(except for the part where a frog fell from the top of the waterfall... that was disguising)
She makes me pee my pants!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wgx0oXrCiz8
This little girl is so hilarious. So I thought I would provide you guys with your daily dose of laughter(:
Have a great day(:
This little girl is so hilarious. So I thought I would provide you guys with your daily dose of laughter(:
Have a great day(:
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Nothing takes God by suprise.
God has a plan for what happens in your life. So if you are hurting right now. If you are completely broken down, at your lowest point, just note that nothing bad that happens in your life takes God by suprise (and nothing good that happens takes him by suprise either). God know what he's doing. He has a plan for everything. He is bigger than your concept of him. He really is. Think of it this way:
When you look out to the sky at night and see billions of stars, they seem so small and pointless. Those stars only seem small because of how far away they are... really, they are much larger than us. Now think of those stars (billions and BILLIONS in the galaxy) and now think of the planets. Think of how large and vast are planet is... think of how HUGE our oceans are. When you look out at the ocean, you see nothing but water for miles and miles. Think about how large the sun is. How big the moon is. That is only ONE galaxy. God holds the WHOLE universe in the palm of his hand. THAT'S HOW BIG HE IS! Now think of this... God,is holding your heart. The hands that hold this whole universe is holding YOUR heart. He cares for YOU. He has a purpose for YOU!He loves YOU Just keep that in mind:)
When you look out to the sky at night and see billions of stars, they seem so small and pointless. Those stars only seem small because of how far away they are... really, they are much larger than us. Now think of those stars (billions and BILLIONS in the galaxy) and now think of the planets. Think of how large and vast are planet is... think of how HUGE our oceans are. When you look out at the ocean, you see nothing but water for miles and miles. Think about how large the sun is. How big the moon is. That is only ONE galaxy. God holds the WHOLE universe in the palm of his hand. THAT'S HOW BIG HE IS! Now think of this... God,is holding your heart. The hands that hold this whole universe is holding YOUR heart. He cares for YOU. He has a purpose for YOU!He loves YOU Just keep that in mind:)
Saturday, April 10, 2010
Monday, March 8, 2010
March 8, 2010
March 8, 2010
Its taken my almost a week to realize that I could do better. Its taken me almost 7 DAYS to realize this. My emotions arent to be toyed around with... and I wont let anyone toy with them. I deserve so much more than that.
NO GUY... is going to distract me from God... and thats what he was doing. EVEN AFTER THE RELATIONSHIP... he STILL distracts me. Not because of how much I "love" him... but now because of how much he hurt me.
God should always come first... in everything, especially relationships. If a relationship isn't centered around God, its bound to fail.
These past few days, I have been so depressed and just hurt.... I wasn't myself. I wasn't that positive and uplifting person that I normally am. I rarely talked to people and when I did it came out as sort of a rude mumble. I was down right RUDE to people and that just wasnt me. When someone cares for you and you are in a relationship, its supposed to be about benefitting and building up not only yourself but the OTHER PERSON. Its about putting their needs before yours.
Okay quick little lesson on how "love" is today and how GOD intended love to be.
People WANT love... we all crave it... we all desire it. WE consume our lives with it. When we arent in a relationship... we're persuing one. Our lives are literally CONSUMED with love and relationships and wanting to be with that one person. We should consume our lives with God... not relationships.
God intended love to be something magical... He did not intend love to be selfish and demanding. He did not want love to be about what YOU want and how YOU feel. He did not want love to be ONLY about sex and the physical needs of YOU.
You know something is wrong in our society when people are getting hurt and torn apart because of "love". Love should not be painful. Love is NOT pain.
Many people often say that love IS PAIN. That love is joy and sorrow, hurting and happiness, pain and freedom all in one. NO... that is wrong.
I've never been more shocked to hear someone say that.
Thats not how God intended love... its not.
LOVE:
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."
That isn't just "some quote". That quote comes straight from the Bible. STRAIGHT from God's word.
Love... is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy,it does not boast, it is not proud...
When you are with that other person... you are supposed to be a BETTER person BECAUSE of them. You should WANT to be a better person because of them.
Love today... isn't like that.
I'm sorry to inform you, but TRUE REAL love how God intended.... rarely exists today and that breaks my heart.
Its taken my almost a week to realize that I could do better. Its taken me almost 7 DAYS to realize this. My emotions arent to be toyed around with... and I wont let anyone toy with them. I deserve so much more than that.
NO GUY... is going to distract me from God... and thats what he was doing. EVEN AFTER THE RELATIONSHIP... he STILL distracts me. Not because of how much I "love" him... but now because of how much he hurt me.
God should always come first... in everything, especially relationships. If a relationship isn't centered around God, its bound to fail.
These past few days, I have been so depressed and just hurt.... I wasn't myself. I wasn't that positive and uplifting person that I normally am. I rarely talked to people and when I did it came out as sort of a rude mumble. I was down right RUDE to people and that just wasnt me. When someone cares for you and you are in a relationship, its supposed to be about benefitting and building up not only yourself but the OTHER PERSON. Its about putting their needs before yours.
Okay quick little lesson on how "love" is today and how GOD intended love to be.
People WANT love... we all crave it... we all desire it. WE consume our lives with it. When we arent in a relationship... we're persuing one. Our lives are literally CONSUMED with love and relationships and wanting to be with that one person. We should consume our lives with God... not relationships.
God intended love to be something magical... He did not intend love to be selfish and demanding. He did not want love to be about what YOU want and how YOU feel. He did not want love to be ONLY about sex and the physical needs of YOU.
You know something is wrong in our society when people are getting hurt and torn apart because of "love". Love should not be painful. Love is NOT pain.
Many people often say that love IS PAIN. That love is joy and sorrow, hurting and happiness, pain and freedom all in one. NO... that is wrong.
I've never been more shocked to hear someone say that.
Thats not how God intended love... its not.
LOVE:
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."
That isn't just "some quote". That quote comes straight from the Bible. STRAIGHT from God's word.
Love... is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy,it does not boast, it is not proud...
When you are with that other person... you are supposed to be a BETTER person BECAUSE of them. You should WANT to be a better person because of them.
Love today... isn't like that.
I'm sorry to inform you, but TRUE REAL love how God intended.... rarely exists today and that breaks my heart.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Beacon
I'm Kayla. I'm not some "preppy teenager". I'm not some "emo" or "goth" kid. I'm not some "gangsta" or "nerd", I'm Kayla. I am myself and no one or nothing can change that. God knows who I really am annd he loves me for it. We need to stop being so consumed with "popularity" and other peoples' opinions and just be ourselves. Honestly, how are we showing God's love for us, if we aren't being ourselves? How are we portraying God's love and grace by making fun of people,drinking,smoking,cursing,sleeping with everyone? We aren't!!!!! Us, teenagers, are the next generation! We need to SHOW GOD'S LOVE! I know that I'm going to be a beacon of light. Maybe there would be less heartbreaks, less suicides, less divorces, breakups, and abortions if we show God's love. God never guranteed us a "perfect world" so let's get that out of our minds, but he did promise shelter in the storm. And when thousands of people are in that storm, I'm going to be the beacon that helps them to shelter.
Random Da doodly doos: 1.19.10
So at the end of my devotions and journals and such, I always lighten the mood with random "da doodly doos".
So here where my random da doodly doos for January 19th :)
Far too far away
I know it must be hard
to see them struggling
you call out
but they refuse to hear you
stupid,arrogant,prideful children
can't they see they need you
can't I see I need you
I need you
~Kayla
DO YOUR SCHOOLWORK! ;) lol
"and how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you and you tell me how can it be any better than this" - Lifehouse "Everything"
REMEMBER (note to self in a few years):
The Notebook= best romance movie/book EVER!!!!! :)
So here where my random da doodly doos for January 19th :)
Far too far away
I know it must be hard
to see them struggling
you call out
but they refuse to hear you
stupid,arrogant,prideful children
can't they see they need you
can't I see I need you
I need you
~Kayla
DO YOUR SCHOOLWORK! ;) lol
"and how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you and you tell me how can it be any better than this" - Lifehouse "Everything"
REMEMBER (note to self in a few years):
The Notebook= best romance movie/book EVER!!!!! :)
Devotion: 1.19.10
So... haha yeah I wrote this on the 19th of January :)
The Power of Perserverance
"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith" 2 Timothy 4:7
1. We must remain faithful, especially during times of hardship
- God is always there for us. No matter what we are going through, how big or small our problems are, God is ALWAYS there.
- God answers EVERY prayer. Although the answer might not always be "yes". God knows what is best for us and God knows what will fit in his master plan.
- Everything happens for a reason. God has a plan for your life. So everything in your life,every little detail, every bad thing, every good thing, has a reason.
If you are having a hard situation just remember that God is in control.
Journal:
I seem to get so caught up in life that sometimes I "forget" God is there. I seem to plave him on the "back burner" until I need him. Then I do some devotions, get on a little "Jesus high" and the next day, go right back to my same routine. I put God on the "back burner" once again. Honestly, I need to STOP. God should be number one, numero uno, the Big Cheese! He should come before friends, before boys, before music or dance or photography, and yes, even before school. He should come before that because he IS my everything. If I claim God to be my everything, my all, then why am I treating him as though he's not important. God shouldn't be JUST my "go-to" man. I shouldn't just go to him when I need him. I'm in a "relationship" with God. In order to have a relationship with him, I need to give effort. God's willing, I just need to be. I just need to put forth the effort. I need to
STOP PUTTING GOD ON THE
BACK BURNER!!!!
Kayla.Elizabeth
The Power of Perserverance
"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith" 2 Timothy 4:7
1. We must remain faithful, especially during times of hardship
- God is always there for us. No matter what we are going through, how big or small our problems are, God is ALWAYS there.
- God answers EVERY prayer. Although the answer might not always be "yes". God knows what is best for us and God knows what will fit in his master plan.
- Everything happens for a reason. God has a plan for your life. So everything in your life,every little detail, every bad thing, every good thing, has a reason.
If you are having a hard situation just remember that God is in control.
Journal:
I seem to get so caught up in life that sometimes I "forget" God is there. I seem to plave him on the "back burner" until I need him. Then I do some devotions, get on a little "Jesus high" and the next day, go right back to my same routine. I put God on the "back burner" once again. Honestly, I need to STOP. God should be number one, numero uno, the Big Cheese! He should come before friends, before boys, before music or dance or photography, and yes, even before school. He should come before that because he IS my everything. If I claim God to be my everything, my all, then why am I treating him as though he's not important. God shouldn't be JUST my "go-to" man. I shouldn't just go to him when I need him. I'm in a "relationship" with God. In order to have a relationship with him, I need to give effort. God's willing, I just need to be. I just need to put forth the effort. I need to
STOP PUTTING GOD ON THE
BACK BURNER!!!!
Kayla.Elizabeth
I should really start using this thing again...
So... I have thought LONG anf HARD about this and I am going to start putting my personal devotions on here. Yes... I know... my PERSONAL devotions. I just felt led to do this. Perhaps someone out there just needs to hear them... just maybe I can help someone in need. Hey... thats what I'm here for right?
Kayla.Elizabeth :)
Kayla.Elizabeth :)
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