March 8, 2010

March 8, 2010

Its taken my almost a week to realize that I could do better. Its taken me almost 7 DAYS to realize this. My emotions arent to be toyed around with... and I wont let anyone toy with them. I deserve so much more than that.

NO GUY... is going to distract me from God... and thats what he was doing. EVEN AFTER THE RELATIONSHIP... he STILL distracts me. Not because of how much I "love" him... but now because of how much he hurt me.
God should always come first... in everything, especially relationships. If a relationship isn't centered around God, its bound to fail.
These past few days, I have been so depressed and just hurt.... I wasn't myself. I wasn't that positive and uplifting person that I normally am. I rarely talked to people and when I did it came out as sort of a rude mumble. I was down right RUDE to people and that just wasnt me. When someone cares for you and you are in a relationship, its supposed to be about benefitting and building up not only yourself but the OTHER PERSON. Its about putting their needs before yours.

Okay quick little lesson on how "love" is today and how GOD intended love to be.

People WANT love... we all crave it... we all desire it. WE consume our lives with it. When we arent in a relationship... we're persuing one. Our lives are literally CONSUMED with love and relationships and wanting to be with that one person. We should consume our lives with God... not relationships.

God intended love to be something magical... He did not intend love to be selfish and demanding. He did not want love to be about what YOU want and how YOU feel. He did not want love to be ONLY about sex and the physical needs of YOU.
You know something is wrong in our society when people are getting hurt and torn apart because of "love". Love should not be painful. Love is NOT pain.
Many people often say that love IS PAIN. That love is joy and sorrow, hurting and happiness, pain and freedom all in one. NO... that is wrong.
I've never been more shocked to hear someone say that.
Thats not how God intended love... its not.

LOVE:
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."

That isn't just "some quote". That quote comes straight from the Bible. STRAIGHT from God's word.

Love... is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy,it does not boast, it is not proud...


When you are with that other person... you are supposed to be a BETTER person BECAUSE of them. You should WANT to be a better person because of them.

Love today... isn't like that.

I'm sorry to inform you, but TRUE REAL love how God intended.... rarely exists today and that breaks my heart.