If you dont read anything i write, at least read this

Okay... so before I start, I wanted you all to know that I don't know everything. I don't have it all together. I don't have everything figured out. Let's face it... none of us do. And if you do, congratulations! :) I would like to meet you and ask you a few questions! :) Cause i sure do not have everything figured out.
What I do know, is that God loves me. God is persuing me:) GOD KNOWS WHAT IS BEST FOR ME! :)
He loves us all. Not as a group, not as a church, but as INDIVIDUALS! I know that no matter what I'm going through... God is always there. :) He's helping me everystep of the way:)
I also know that he has a plan and a calling for my life:) I just need to listen. He has a plan for each and every one of us:) He knows everything about us. He loves us. He loves you. He loves you more than you can possibly imagine.
That is all.
Thank you:)

ohhhhhh I'm on a roll

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Ohhhhhh im on a roll :P
by Kayla Orr on Sunday, June 20, 2010 at 10:47pm
Life is a challenge. It really is. We all have our ups and downs. The times when we're so over-joyed we can't even begin to fathem the idea of something bad happening. Then we have those times when we're so hurt and distraught that we can't even imagine how things are going to get better. I've had times in my life when I just want to stop... we all have. Life sucks... lets face it. Life wasn't meant to be care-free. We all are going to have struggles. Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. We cannot grow stronger if we're never challenged. There are two types of people in the world; those who get back up and dust themselves off, and those who simply stop.

Life sucks. Thats it. Life is always going to be a constant struggle and people are going to just have to accept that. We, as people, think "oh if I can just achieve that, I'll be happy", but in thinking this way, we are never TRUELY happy. Even if we just so happen to achieve everything, its never going to be enough. We are always going to want more and we remain unhappy in our relentless persuit of success and achievment.

All I can say, is life sucks. You're always going to have struggles, you're always going to have hard times. The thing is... you can choose to be someone who continues living, fights through all the bad times, holds onto their faith, and enjoys the good times.... or you can be the person who stops.

I'm the next Edgar Allan Poe...

Shall we emerge from the light and cast away the shadows of death that dance with joy all around us

We simply huddle in our misery and drown in our tears.

We have no hope nor do we try to excel. We simply envy those who have captured hope and hold it in the palm of their hand.

Discouraged by our enemies and abandoned by the desires from which we grew up.

Never dreaming to submerge from the glow of hope . We grow invisible into the shadows of the cold lifeless allyways.

our voices never to be heard again. There is nothing left of us and who we were or who we were meant to be,

and the beating sounds fade into hallow blows as our hearts harden and crumble to a cold gray dust.

If only we held onto hope.

ohhhhhhh and i get angry

Today my mom went to clean an elderly woman's home. She was soooooooo kind and her and I sat for awhile and talked about how this nation is becoming more and more corrupt and how we desperately need God (cause old people like to talk about that kinda stuff). It was nice to talk with her and hear her opinions and views on how life is and how life should be. I could tell that she was so disgusted and upset about how this nation that was built "UNDER GOD" is turning out. Its terribly sad that our nation is so corrupt. Talking with her made me realize that people change. As much as we don't want them to, they always do and many times its for the worse. A person becomes addicted to drugs or alcohol...CHANGE! A person who was once so innocent starts dabbling in sexual immortality... CHANGE! And it seems like people are always changing for the worse and in doing so, they're heading in the wrong direction. We can try to stop people from changing for the worse, but many times they aren't going to listen. So what?!?!... we give up, let those people we care so much about destroy their lives? We can't just do that. We can't just sit back and allow those people to head straight on the path of self annihilation. If we love these people SO much, we do we simply give up on them? Why aren't we chasing them, perusing them, praying for them, talking with them, showing them that there is hope in something other than all these corrupt things they are partaking in. We talk amongst our friends and think to ourselves about how much they are changing, but why aren't we DOING anything? We aren't confronting them. Maybe thats why this nation is so corrupt. Maybe thats why statistics say that 19.1 million Americans ages 12 years and older were current users of illicit drugs in the year 2004. (the statistics are drastically increasing). This means that they used an illicit drug at least once within 30 days of being interviewed. Maybe this is why only 63% of teens showed abstinence in the year 2003, the percentage decreased nearly 30% by the year 2007. Maybe if these people's friends actually spoke up, we wouldn't have this problem...

And if feels like I'm screaming to the top of my lungs and no one is listening.

I was thinking and it is utterly amazing what God does for us. I am so unworthy, so sinful, so rebellious against him, yet he still wants me. He is still perusing me. He still shelters me after all I've done. After all the times I've used him, ignored him, cursed his name, he's still there with open arms waiting for me to come back to him. He loves me regardless of everything I've done. He's done so much for me and for what? So I can go off, living as though he's not there. We all want that "perfect relationship", whether its with a parent, lover, friend, etc., but we don't realize that we already have that. We already have someone that loves us more than we could possibly fathom. So why do we ignore that? Why do we simply push that aside in return for Earthly relationships and Earthly love that aren't nearly as great as what God has for us. We fill our lives with Earthly things that will never fully satisfy us, but why? I can't imagine why we ignore that.

We have the perfect relationships right at the tip of our fingers, but we don't reach out and grab it. Because? because we're too lazy? Too scared? Too worried we're doing something wrong? We don't want to change? Endless love isn't worth that little bit of effort?!?! We don't read the Bible because we're scared? We think its a bunch of "Rules and Regulations"? NO! Its not, its the biggest love book in this world. Its not a bunch of "thou shalt not do this" and "thou shalt always do that". No, its filled with "I love you", "I'm perusing you", "you mean everything to me." YOU, individually, mean everything to me. He knows each and every one of us better than we know ourselves and he loves us... for US! He loves us constantly, CONSTANTLY. No matter what we've done in the past or what we're doing now... and when you realize that, you can't contain it.

So I'm sure you're thinking "Wellllll Kayla, you just have more faith than me!"

WELLLLL PERSON... all you need is faith the size of a mustard seed. (:

Hello People of the world! I'm on a mission to change your life

1.) Kayla, how are you always so happy?

2.) Youre the biggest optimist I know. how do you do it?

3.) How can you always keep a smile on your face?

4.) how are you so satisfied with yourself and your life.

I get asked these questions all the time and honestly the answer is how could i NOT be happy.

1.) I'm happy because I have no reason to be unhappy. I have so much and God has provided me with so much. So really.... I have no reason to be anything but happy.

2.) I'm not always optimistic. Actually I'm more of a realist but when something bad happens I choose not to be negative. I dont choose to wallow in my own sadness. I dont choose to pity myself. I get back up, dust myself off, and fix the problem.

...we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit which has been given to us. (Romans 5:3-5)

3.) I always smile... even when i dont feel like it. I do this because you never know who needs a smile(:

4.) I'm satisfied with myself because i know who i am and who God mafe me to be. I dont have to "search" for myself. I dont have to go from trend to trend trying to be and look like everyone else. I'm satisfied with who I am because God doesnt make mistakes.

and yesss... I have to remind myself that everyday.

soooo in conclusion... I'm hoping that this little note some how... some way changed your aspect on life and even hopefully made you a happier person (:

You never know who needs to hear something like this(:

so:

when youre happy express it. (I'm not saying never cry... sometimes you need a good cry)

always keep a smile on your face

know that God doesnt make mistakes and you.are.beautiful.

Dont try to be like anyone else...

because I....and a lot of other people... and God... love YOU. (: